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Well, he said that I'm a "cool friend" (<3 I feel pathetic for being so excited about that one) and that he just doesn't feel like he knows me well enough... so there's still hope, I suppose.
*sigh* It's weird. All at once, I feel so amazingly relieved and so completely crushed. I was terrified that he'd... I dunno what, exactly. I was scared that it'd be like freshman year, and that I'd be... ignored, I guess. Disregarded. I know he'd never DO that, of course, but I mean... that's the only experience I have to go on, not counting that nice simple shoot-down from Winn ("Will you go out with me?" "Sorry, I'm in a relationship." So simple! ><;;; Why can't it be that simple this time? Well, I mean I'd prefer a "yes", but even that left me with very little doubt.)
I mean, it's really awesome that he's being so nice about it. Still, I wish I could just somehow talk to him and persuade him to change his mind. I love him so fucking much- why can't he, for whatever reason, randomly feel the same way? *head-desk* Come on, Anneka- it doesn't work that way! Damn you, Disney, for polluting my mind so. >:O
I'm actually kind of annoyed... I wish his reason were less sensible- then I'd have a reason to be mad at him! xD Unfortunately, he's a sensible kinda guy... so I guess that doesn't really work. :/
...odd, though, that he wasn't at all expecting it. I guess I'm less pathetically obvious than I'd thought. xD
I love him I love him I love him. Why does it have to be all complex? ><; I suppose this could turn out like Jeff and Kasey, of course... that'd mean I only have to endure 6 incredibly awkward months, and then he'll ask me out. -.- Great.
I suppose I should go to bed now, ne? Night night world~!
...I still love him.
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